I saw three cats
at the end
of the hallway
where I hoped to find
my doctor
to ask once again
if it was really okay
for me
to be
around

but they told me
nothing
instead
walking
around me
instead
as if asking me
"Where
are you going?"

and how long would I be gone for
I thought to myself
I thought to myself
as I sat
and drew my legs in
and smelled the dust
wandering in the still amber light

letting
my head drift
till my head fell back
and my body with it
the floorboards were cool
and the light warm

lying there
I could feel
someone pacing
at the end of the floor

I sat up
opened my eyes
placed my palms on the ground
the pulsing had stopped
the cats were gone
it was night.